Holy Cow Billy.

I started to write in a journal that my grandmother gave me like 10 years ago. Then I realized that it hurts my hand to write for an extended period of time and I can type about 900 words per minute. So. I'm typing my thoughts instead of writing them. So since the last time I wrote on my blog - pretty much everything has changed. I live in Charleston. I work from home. I lay on the couch watching episodes of Storage Wars with my boyfriend instead of laying on the same couch alone watching cheesy love themed movies on Hallmark {le sad}. I feel like so much has changed and I don't even know where to start. {1} I have nails. Like finger nails. I stopped biting them. They look real good. Seriously. Except for my right hand ring finger. That one broke. {2} I live with my boyfriend. I was filled with anxiety about this - but turns out - we went from not seeing each other for most of the month to seeing each other every day without any major hiccups. Stay tuned. {3} I'm taking Catholic classes. I know for anyone who knows me - this seems exceedingly surprising. I realize this and acknowledge the reasons why. To be perfectly honest, I kind of stopped "churching" for about 8 years (college and the first 4 years in Charlotte). When I started dating Matt - he got me back in church - which happened to be a Catholic one. I resisted at first - but I have found that I really enjoy going and I relate to the catholic church more than I did to nondenominational, methodist, etc. My college friend Ginni put it best when she said - "One God - Many Paths". I don't belittle anyone's path or try to force my own on anyone else, but I feel really confident about the path I am on and I am excited to make it "official" at the Easter vigil in April. {4} I started reading this book by Matthew Kelly called "The Rhythm of Life". He pretty much says he knows the meaning of life and it is to "become the best version of yourself". I can't tell you how much I have felt lost about this topic and how unbelievably life shattering reading this has been. I know that seems odd - once you hear it, you almost feel like - "well of course". But if you really stop and think - if you made every decision in life based on this fact - based on becoming the best version of yourself - you would truly become an amazing, kind, selfless person. As much as this has changed my perception of my life - it seems so daunting - I hardly know where to start. Changing behaviors that are learned and practiced over many years is not exactly as easy as just the same old same old. Its kind of like starting to exercise when you have done nothing or starting to talk to God when you haven't in 8 years...yeah. [Sidebar] Have you seen the Chronicles of Narnia: Voyage of the Dawntreader? This movie is pretty much amazing and brings the entire reason C.S. Lewis wrote these books to the front. It helps children understand God as a person you can talk to and depend on and revere. That is the hardest thing for me - talking to God as if he were someone I can just have a conversation with. [End Sidebar]. So anyway, I'm going to attempt to start writing more often in lieu of writing in a journal. I need to continue cleaning out my new office so I leave you with this thought. "Wherever there is a human being, there is an opportunity for kindness." - Seneca